Alterna

Like trying to find the perfect the pair of jeans.. it's hard trying to find the perfect shampoo. The older I get the more sensitive I am to products I use on my body. I have to thank my really good friend Tracey for introducing me to this hair care line! My scalp is no longer itchy and my hair color doesn't fade like it used to! My search for the perfect shampoo & conditioner is over! Thanks Alterna!!


The Volume Restore Conditioner prevents hair loss and protects the moisture and color in your hair. It even smells like heaven!


The Scalp Therapy Shampoo is free of sulfates and is minty refreshment for your scalp!


Give Alterna a try! You won't be disappointed!

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Rachel Bilson's bag. I think I need it!

Stationary

(oh so beautiful paper)

I have an obsession with stationary. When I'm bored I spend my time staring at stationary & getting ideas for designing my own. I picture myself living in some southern city designing stationary. I'm not sure why the south but for some reason I just picture myself in the south. :)

I've been in a funk.. I apologize!

I've been neglecting this blog. This funk I've been in has clouded the creativity that normally
lives in my head. I normally don't like to write anything too personal but if someone is going through
a similar situation it's comforting to know you aren't alone.

This "funk" I speak of has been going on since turning 26 back in February. I'm not sure if it's just
a unhappiness of where my life has been going on. I've had these overwhelming insecurities that
I normally don't have. Part of it is unhappiness with where my life is going. The downward spiral
of my funk hit rock bottom a week in a half ago. My arm was in a sling. My arm was in severe pain.
I found out that my ex was moving back east. Even though we were no long together we were civil.
I won't get to say good-bye to him or a feline that I grew to love like my own. Knowing I wouldn't get
the closure/say the things I wanted to say.. it brought back these old feelings that I thought I was rid of.
I felt alone. I felt like I was nothing. I felt like I was worth nothing. I felt these things because if I couldn't
make that relationship work would I ever be able to make a relationship work? If I couldn't make us work
as friends would I ever be able to be friends with anyone? Was I worth anything? I became angry because
I believed these things and I was angry at myself for thinking this way. Why would someone want to be friends
with me? These insecurities ate me alive and at times they still have been creeping into my mind. Besides all of that
other parts of my life have been changing. When I first moved out here I just turned 20. Most people my age were in college and partying their butts off. I was working my butt off at a legit full-time job while trying to make a tricky relationship work. I feel like I should be farther ahead in life then where I am. I've been waiting on high school transcripts so I can finally go to the school I've been dreaming of going to for the past 3 years. My high school lost my transcripts. I miss getting to hang out with certain people in my life. I miss being included in their activities. I sometimes feel like I'm in middle school and someone has a party and I'm the only one not invited.

I've done a lot of soul searching these past few weeks & I've been trying to surround myself with better people. I make mistakes, i do stupid things from time to time and sometimes I say things that are just plain dumb.. who doesn't? I can be stubborn, bullheaded & sometimes I get a mouth on me. I'm not easy & I'm pretty darn picky when it comes to guys. I am loyal, faithful & I always try to put myself in someone else's shoes. I am very protective about the people I care about and I will bend over backwards for them if need be. It may have taken me a bit longer figure out what I want to do in life but I have a ton of life/job experience under my belt. I could keep making a list but what's the point? If you don't see that I am a great catch & a great person/friend it's not worth it. Why try making someone see how amazing you are? It's their loss. It's taken me a long time to realize that but I do now. Everyone deserves the best & for once I truly believe that I do too.